Blowing out Light Bulbs...

I awoke this morning feeling out of sorts. I got up when the alarm went off, went into the bathroom, turned on the heater and pulled the curlers off the shelf to plug into the wall. This all without turning on the light because I was going back to bed while things warmed up.

Then I heard something fall into the toilet.

Ugh! Light on...fish out the glasses case and wash it off.
I tried to crawl back into bed but my mind was racing. I am sure it was racing in dream land too. Ack! I got up and went to get some juice as I was too hot to get tea or coffee. I read some mail and then headed back to shower and get ready for work. I hate those days when I put on a number of outfits and nothing seems to work.


I was just out of sorts today. I get my stuff ready, head out the door for the bus and traffic is backed up on my street again. I wait for a few minutes as my bus makes his way down the street.

While this is happening I am struck by feelings of insecurity and fear. I am going to be obsolete at work soon. Why do they need me? There are people who are better and can work faster than me. What if I am not good enough? My regular bus driver pulls up, I step on and smile, saying good morning and he smiles. I take a seat, pull out my ipod and put my sunglasses on and close my eyes trying to release the negative thoughts. Then there are cars coming from all directions just blocking the bus' path and the driver is honking and angry. Wow!

I try and find a song that will take my mind off of my own insecure thoughts and all the negativeness swirling around me. I get to my stop and hop off, heading into Starbucks to get some coffee. I see one of the sweetest people on the planet on my way out the door and am so happy to see her. But she is in a less than happy place and I literally took on her mood. By the time I was at the office I had lost the happy place I had gotten to and was back in a dark place.

She stopped by my office and actually asked me what was wrong because I had been happy. She pointedly asked, "did you take mine?" and I paused for a moment and laughed. Yep, I sure did. So I did this little exercise to release the negative energy and tried to move past it. It was not gone. I was still irritated. I turned off the overhead lights in my office and grabbed a lamp from the common room. I reached to my desk to turn on my desk lamp and literally touched it when the bulb bursts and glass went flying. I had to laugh. My power is incredible. Yikes!

To be continued...